this site
i'm getting back into personal websites because social media is anathema to my spirit. welcome to my site.

somewhere between 2010-2019 i accidentally built an art career and persona around being in public as myself. but now that i'm in a new decade, i am making adjustments.

i believe in not using our real names for things. so call me nobody. who i am doesn't matter.

autism
i am autistic which to me means i feel far more than a non-autistic person. i feel physical and mental sensation in situations where many do not. this is why i think autism can be a form of magic - many of us are more sensitive, intuitive, and able to immediately sense what is alive and what is not in a situation. sometimes this is profoundly helpful and other times it is exhausting.

it is particularly exhausting to be infantilized for being autistic, to be unemployable because jobs are not accessible to those who feel, and to be manipulated on a loop because men enjoy coercive power-hungry psychology games whereas i'm just trying to feel a sense of cohesion between what's inside and what's outside.

because the dominant cultures of the world favor logic and hate anything that is associated with women (i.e., emotions), the level of awareness i have can be is disabling and isolating. apparently we are all meant to embody soulless sheep and lie dormant in corporate shadows. i won't do it!

DIY
i came up as a musician in a folk punk environment, which was irrevocably influential on my artistic ethos. i think all music is valid, even bad music. i am often way more impressed by bad music because i am more impressed by musicians taking emotional risks. i see musicians as people and i see folk musicians as people who like to make music and integrate it into their life, not as a career but as a way of being.